Nothing is perfect as I may say....i did nt hd a great or even a good life so far and the hope to see a bright future is deminishing day by day. I am really fed up and distressed by seeing my condition. The everyday routine of my work has made me a negative and a rude person. What am I gonna do ?? I m 22 and stil dnt have any job. The problem is because of the condition of my home m nt allowed to work..I have to give all my time and efforts for d family cooking for them feeding cleaning washing etc etc n m really fed up nw sometimes I feel suicidal what is dis life....jst full of shit

I am fed up with life, most of my family wouldn't even consider me family. I've been homeless a few times, I've hit rock bottom several times only to climb out of the rut with missing fingernails and a shattered spirit. I don't talk to any of the people I used to because they all seem so fake or phony or just want something from you in my eyes. The world is going to shit around me, countries are fighting over trivial things only for self gain. You spend most of your life working your butt off only to get a few dollars that other companies quickly take from you leaving you with pennies to survive on. Retirement is not an option for my generation, we will be working until we are dead due to inflation and the greedy nature of the 1% of the world. Every company just wants to put their hands in your pockets and take what you've worked so hard for. We are waiting for 1 of 2 devils to take the white house office as president, and regardless of who wins we will end up in a war. People are a parasite to Earth. We are led to believe the government and police will protect us but in this day and age they are the most corrupt of them all. The government hides so much from the people as to what they are doing behind our backs because they know the people of the country wouldn't support it. There's alien bases on the moon, media just tries to mask it. We hold ourselves back as a species due to our own ignorance and greed for both money and religion. I feel so helpless in this world, as if I don't belong here. I've contemplated suicide a few times, but I don't have the guts to do it as I'm not that shallow. I don't think I will ever reach peace living on this planet as I'm just disgusted with how everything is ran. We are led to believe we have a choice, as if our lives mattered as much as the presidents, but our lives mean nothing. We are at the bottom of the totem pole, paying everyone everything we have just to have a place to call home and some food to eat. I've experienced more bad times than good in this lifetime and quite frankly, I wouldn't mind being a casualty in WW3 as I wouldn't have to put up with this worlds bull crap anymore. Humanity sickens me, and there's nothing I can do to fix it. You can say eat healthy, but eating "healthy" is more expensive than eating our typical GMO foods. There's no privacy anymore, phone companies can look through your phones camera and record audio at any time. There are cameras everywhere and everyone is constantly looking over their shoulders. We buy into medication thinking that it will help us but It only numbs the pain until the drug wears off. We have a cure for cancer but choose not to use it regularly as there's more money to be made off someone that has to see the doctor and buy medications constantly. The word humanity is non existent, and honestly I would rather die than have to sit back and watch the world screw itself over yet again. I don't want to live on this planet anymore, and I've run out of room..

I used to be a good basketball player and write whenever I had time. In college, I gave my everything towards the game even when my parents said it's not a good idea to focus solely on sports. I scored low in commerce but continued playing basketball for the 'love' of the game. It doesn't pay much and all I get is few rupees to scrape through the month. I'm 24 now and probably suffering from depression, it's so hard to smile nowadays. I get a gnawing feeling whenever I'm on the court and my legs feel like hot jelly. I try not to cry when I see Dad still working and having that worn off expression, and it hurts so bad that all I have to offer is so little. I always thought following my dream will enable me to have a good life and when I see my face in the mirror nowadays I don't like the person I've become. Being kind, chasing dreams and giving your everything to realise it leads to the disappointed face of my dad wasn't worth it. I work hard, but I don't think there's any redemption in this life anymore...just plain old suffering and a hollowness that makes me sick everyday. I hope things change man...

My name is Rajwinder Kaur.....M struggling with intense depression.....I alwys feel tht iam lonely even i hv frnds n family!! M feeling jealous sometimes frm people i dn't may be because of my own failure..sometimes i started crying without any of the reason ...Iam 24rs old...but i feel lik me gettng older i feel myself like a 60yr old lady...i alwys feel lazy...my legs strt paining lik dere is nothng inside my body...feeling sick sometimes ...i dn't like to go to college meetng with people ...It's lik i locked myself in d room!! I dn't wanna talk to anyone dn't wanna go n meet anyone....i want to be alone..because i feel people r soo selfish dese days...i cn't trust....i dn't knw wht's happening with me...m scared!! ????????????

I honestly don't know what to do. I don't know how to react to people. My primary school was just amazing. In my middle school I was badly bullied. And now despite a lot of therapy I feel I'm not good enough to be around. What should I do?

I am a 19 year old guy. I feel fed up with my life cause no matter how much I try I fail in my exams. This has led to parents being frustrated and getting angry at me. I have literally led a supposed 'good boy' life. I do not drink, smoke and do all the bad habits. I don't even have a girlfriend or that sort of a thing. I wonder why is God being so harsh on me as I haven't inculcated any bad habits and always been a good guy. Sometimes I really feel like giving up on life as it doesn't have any sense to live :(

I'm totally fed up with my life. I'm facing relationship issues since a long time at the same time having professional issues. Its look like day by day I'm loosing interest in my life. Many many times i feel i need someone who could make me laugh, who could understand me. I really dont know what to do?? Pls suggest something...

I came on this site because of what i am feeling now and have been feeling for long time. I read all the comments and especially mel b comment in helping others.....i have done that for a long time helped and put others before myself which always backfires. I ended up with depression anxiety and started hating people. Although helping others can be rewarding it also has its bad effects. Not so easy to get out off due to guilty feelings bringing you to a place that i am in now , fed up of life and fed up of helping others. Fighting between guilt if i dont and depression when i do.

i am so disallusioned with "life" I have been a heroin addict most my life, alcoholoic, my family despise me, because i am miserable. I have no friends, I have gone to bed and woken up for over 3,000 days now alone and most of the time cold. I have tried to kill myself 2 times not cries for help, 70 10 mg valium washed down with a litre of vodka, follwed by a swift IV injection of average smack about a gramme and a half, just woke up with a headache the first time, the second time they sectioned me. But then let me go. They have me on all these pills. I have tried some for years, others I tried and I feel NO different on or off them. I just want to go to sleep and never wake up, I do not believe there is anything past the blackness of unconsciousness. I wish sometimes I was in a country where I could get a fire arm and just blow my pathetic infintesimal life away. I am not even particularly scared of dying, its the effect I shall have on others. I suppose I could just disappear and that would be that. I am not young 45 years old and I am exhausted with trying to be happy, to please everyone else, because I am "negative" and useless, and should not use my family as my psychiatrists. I am an elective mute a lot of the time, because frankly I have nothing to say, and no one to say it to. I think that this charade should be ended. Tis time I shuffled from this mortal coil.

Whilst I feel fed up of life a lot of the time, I feel I have the right to live life my way. However societal norms tell us we have to be happy even if we have to pretend to be so. We don't all have to be the same. I wish we could all come together and seriously be who we are, express our sadness, our discontent, our aims not achieved etc. only then can we say we accept ourselves and each other without expectation! I don't want to give up on life because life isn't just for the lucky ones or the ones who have it easy, we ordinary ones have a right to breathe in the air, appreciate the beauty of nature and wish for nice things to happen too. I know some really seemingly happy people who are desperately lonely. This only came about because I started talking about loneliness at work and this allowed other people to tell me they're lovely too. I know I'm not alone but sometimes life is a lonely place.