I broke 2 disc in my neck herniated two in my lower back in November of 04 I've lost everything I own lost my mother lost my sister both the cancerand I am stuck paying for bills the workmans comp should have been paying for I used to be able to support my entire family now 11 years later I still have nothing I can't work I can't play with my children and every time the weather changes I'm in so much pain I don't want to get out of bed I don't sleep at night I'm up for days I hate going out in public because people see a young adult that should have nothing wrong with himnot working and using a handicap spot my wife is our only support and she can only work part time I can't give my children what they deserve and hardly keep the bills paidit seems just like everything in my life is falling apart just like my body so I know how you feel I hate my life

in 2010 I feel in love with this girl who was obviously a bad influence. I ended up choosing a college based off of where she wanted to go. We didn't last and I ended up with terrible grades and hating the school I attended. after I got over the fact that I was a failure I met this guy and I ended up getting pregnant. my parents suggested that I not keep the baby because I still had a young life to live. I still needed to travel, go to school. and live a normal 20 year old life, but I didn't listen, mainly because the father, my boyfriend at the time begged and begged that I keep the baby because it was always his dream to have a child. I kept the baby strictly out of guilt and the fact that I felt like getting and abortion would ruin his life little did I know that keeping the baby would ruin mine. I ended up keeping the baby and though I love my son I don't like the life I now live because of him. my boyfriend and I (my sons father) sometimes get along but not for the most part. I don't think he does his part as a father, I don't trust him & I hate his family. I feel like im stuck with nothing left to do or live for. I feel like I ruined my life so early that its to late to try to fix it. this is my miserable life. please help me.

Ugh I don't like my life. I have glasses and went to a contacts trial today. First of all I felt confident, like no worries to put it in my eye. But I kept on blinking it out and now I am left with no contacts. I really need them since its summer and I do want to see clearly. I also hate the way my eye doctor stares at me like a hawk. I kept on failing to put it in and she just watched me fail. I got so nervous and upset I started to cry, not bawl but just tears running down my face. She rolls her eyes at me and I'm only 12.

I feel alone in the world. I feel alienated from everyone around me. I grew up with a weekend drunk father who used to abuse my mother, my grandmother and my half (older) brother & sister. My eldest brother ran away from home at 14 & grew up a street kid downtown. My sister checked herself in to Bridgeport hospital (Riverdale hospital back then). They were both born back "home", as were my parents. I'm thr only born Canadian of my generation in my family. I didn't know the people/family my siblings grew up knowing and we experienced different things growing up. For that, I feel distant from my family. When I got older and started to defend my mother, my father had me thrown in jail (after being told, in his drunken stupor, that my "friends" would be responsible for that). Speaking of which, because of my family situation, I didn't have too many friends. When we lived downtown, everyone knew our family in our courtyard (so I've been told). When I moved to the burbs, I found it hard to make friends. I was always overweight & not too many kids wanted to play with the fat kid...especially girls. On top of that, my family no longer lived in Co op housing. We were in a neighbourhood where I had friends of different backgrounds, but I was never allowed in too many of their houses or met any of their families. Sometimes the only kids who would play with me all came from public housing. I was considered "rich" to the kids in housing who would sometimes gang up on me. My entire past is filled with rejection, insults, alienation, isolation and just sad memories. I find them affecting my current relationship. My partner has a big family who are very close to one another. They grew up in subsidized housing and been through a lot. But the love they have for each other, I've never seen before. Ever. I get jealous of that love. A lot. Even though they've accepted me as one of their own, I find myself keeping them at a distance for fear of them rejecting me one day. I find I don't know how to accept people's kindness. I'm cynical towards everything. I would go for a couple days without any outside contact other than my partner. I don't have the heart to tell her that sometimes I feel like hurting myself....or other people. I don't know what to do. I don't know who to talk to. I lost faith in everything I used to believe in. I can't concentrate on anything. I cry myself to sleep sometimes.

I graduated college 2 years ago and I'm in a career field that I dread. I love working with children with special needs but it wears me out; I'm super stressed and very exhausted at the end of the day. These feelings have taken over and I find my self saying I hate my life. On my resume, I seem like a job hopper and that's why I continue to persue this job. The pay is good, yet the commute is horrible. I drive all around for in home therapy. I've looked at options for a next step but I just can seem to make moves forward. I'm average in everything I do and my confidence level needs a lot of work. My gpa in college was barely a 3.0 and I know I'm horrible at interviews. I guess I just feel secure where I'm at but I absolutely dread it. I don't know what's wrong with me, I understand there are a lot more people dealing with terrible situations. I always let fear get the best of me. I need help or maybe smack of reality.

WHY?! That's MY question. Why don't i just get love. Isn't it easy? ; (

I hate my life. I hate my job. My husband left me for someone. I live in a city where I can't meet anyone because everyone has left to get away. I am stuck here because I have a kid and I have to live in the same city as her father. I'm tired of being a parent. I just want to sell everything, travel and then whatever happens happens. I'm sick of everything. All of my friends are very busy in the summer with their husbands and families and out of town guests. I literally spend weeks completely alone. I've joined an activity group which meets once a week. I'm just not into anything. I go to the gym but I never meet anyone. There is something horrible and repellant about me. I hate the city I live in. I just want to leave but I can't because I have a kid. I used to love being a parent but I don't anymore. It is joyless.

I hate my life. I am always the underdog. I never win. Nothing good ever happens to me. I hate my life. No one cares about me I am so alone in this world. I miss him terribly and I am so disheartened that he has chose trash over me. If he treats trash better than me, what am I? Worthless. I hate my life. Kill me please today.

I have as far as I can remember been the joker the one who always cheers people up no matter what had a good life was married motorbike, car own home, business full time well paid job and well hit too often to bother remembering i left now 2yrs on i have been on 5 different anti-depressants never hurt myself or anyone else, I have been "non-priority homeless" for nearly 2yrs cant get a place to live coz i have no kids i have worked nearly all my life and cant tell anyone where i am or what i do as i cant take the chance of my ex finding me, he may have found a life and i hope he has i never give anyone ill-will and thats the truth but now i am stuck with life but no life at the same time, i gt with some one with anxiety depression more issues than tissues and i fell angry now everyday i took myself of the "happy pills" coz happy thay did nt make me feel i could write a book, i was bullied at school but it has never been an issue i used to sing, play instruments and all that jazz now i feel crap all the time i wish i could tell you all more but my hands are aching already.xx

Im 15 years old, I only have a couple friends but not in the country I live, I stay all day at home watching tv or playing videogames, my classmates don't really talk to me, I talk and they answer as shortly as they can, I've been in 5 different schools in 3 different countries thanks to my parents, they keep saying "you're going to a better school to learn more" though they fail to notice that each time its harder for me to socialize, I guess my subconscious doesn't want me to make friends to somehow ease the pain of losing them afterwards. All the times when I like a girl I don't have the guts to go talk to her scared that I'll be rejected, I feel that all I have are the 4 languages I speak, I don't like looking at the mirror or having photos taken of me because of how ugly I think I am. I don't think I ever accomplished anything. I've been in this school for just 4 months and I already feel like an outcast, and the fact that I don't speak the native language very well makes it even harder, I recently changed countries so I had to go back 2 years that means everyone in my class is 2 years younger than me. I always envy the other people at school because they have friends, almost all of them have had girlfriends but not me, when the class has a party I don't find out about it until a couple days later because everyones talking about how cool it was, I even got kicked out of one school because I was socially different, even though I had the best grades in the class, the longest I've stayed In a school is 3 years. I can't stand talking to my father for long because sometimes I blame him for this. The one time I told them I don't want to change schools they said im going to be a homeless drunk.