I hate my life I have body odor which is the worst condition to have been living with this shit for 8 years day in day out what a wasted life why me why always me

I have depression. My dream was to become a gunsmith but now I can't be around guns anymore because of my suicidal thoughts and actions. I'm getting treatment but now I just sit in my mother's house, getting older doing nothing. My father kicked me out six months ago and I'm afraid my mom will do the same. I've tried working but couldn't face it. I wish I could find a job I could do without crying, learn a trade or something without screwing up. But I have no idea what to do.

I'm 16 years old and I was affect by my biological father when I was little, all he did was yell, I told my mom that and he was send out of the city and I haven't seen him since, he left when I was 6...But when I was 7 my mom married a man and now he is my step dad...I hate him! He always thinks he's right! He yells at me for being me and to be more like a man...he's just like his father! I've never had a good sleep for a few years now because I cry to almost 3:00 in the morning because of him...My mom tells him to stop yelling, and because I yell and swear back, my mom gets pissed off at me... :'( I hate my life...Everything I do seems to be wrong. He makes me feel weak...He tells me that I'm unhealthy when I'm the fittest one in the family...I hate him! ... Sometimes I just think of leaving..

I hate My LifE I want To kILL sOmeoNE

hi , i am 17 year old girl from dubai.i totally hate my life.i really dont understand what is happeneing in my life. all i see downfall .My parents hate me a lot becuz i am not tht good at studies,i am an average student . but sometimes i feel i am total failure becuz my parents keep blaming me for everything. i had many dreams all got shattered becuz of my parents. I am commerce student they wanted me to take science stream even i wanted to take but i thought i couldnt do it so i opted it out. Everyday my parents tell me u should have taken science. They always critisize me and say tht i am good for nothing. I have reached a point where i wanted to end mu life becuz i have no one to share my problems. Even my frnds get bored after hearing whatever i say . I am totally lonely now. i just dont know what to do !!

I hate my life I wish I were dead. I never win and nothing good ever happens to me. No one understands how lonely and how lousy I feel. Why do I deserve this when I have been a good person? Why do the selfish always get what they want? I am nothing.

I'm 16, i used to suffer bullying when i was a child, and it really fucked me up, i didnt have any friend of anything. this year some girl started talking to me, i fell in love with her, we dated for 1 month and then she turned her back away from me. since that, my life started making no sense, it's never made. i think about her everyday, i think about killing myself everyday. i just wanna get over this shit i wish i could, but everytime i try i just fell into another hole.

I was beaten by a schizophrenic mother until I was emancipated at 13. I moved in with my dad and stepmother. My stepmother said she wanted to adopt me -- I'd known her since I was 5 -- bit a year later she stopped talking to me when she and my dad divorced. I had cancer in my early 20's but managed to have a beautiful son. My son's dad snapped my spine and crippled me and I am in constant pain 24/7. I also have severe anxiety issues. Recently I haven't been able to get my 2mg of xanax due to others abusing it. I've tried every other antianxiety medication and I'm either allergic or it doesn't work. The only reason I wouldn't consider killing myself is my son, but he's becoming more like his dad and it scares me. I can't afford to buy the xanax I need to function, and I'm in so much pain all the time (I also have fibromyalgia ). I don't know what to do and I can't make phone caIls to get doctors because I get panic attacks on the phone. If my son becomes like his schizotipic dad, it will be the end.

I'm 15 years old and I've been suffering through depression for the past 3 years. My mom send me to a high school with an enriched program and I've hated it. My marks have gone down but I don't want to tell her I wanna drop out because she's gonna get mad an upset. My friends are all... weird I guess we're friends in school but outside of school we barely talk. My older sister is always yelling at me and hitting me telling me I'm worth nothing. I wanna tell my parents but she says she's gonna expose me for the time I got drunk. That wasn't even my fault, one of the bitches is school mixed somthing in my coke. I hate my life I cut and cry and beat myself and I pray for my death I want this all to end.

I also hate my life. I am much older than most of you in this forum. I am a 33 year old married woman with three kids yet I am unhappy and miserable. My life has always been difficult and unfair. I thought growing up and starting my own family would wash everything over. Instead it has not and everything slowly resurfaces eventually. Please don't get me wrong, I love my children and I love my husband but somehow I am alone... unhappy... unloved... unwanted. I have always been the black sheep of the family. I have always been an outcast. I have reached a point in my life where I don't think I want to go on anymore. I feel like I have reached my peak. I feel cornered and I feel sad and I feel angry. Most of all, I feel hopeless. I don't know if anyone will ever read this or if anyone even cares but for anyone feeling down or depressed please seek help. If I had earlier on in my life, my mental state would have been elsewhere by now.